Once I heard the words “Yes, this is a confirmed diagnosis of MS.” I am not sure what I felt first, confused, anger or overwhelm. I knew what I was feeling physically, I felt extremely fatigued, my migraines were off the charts in frequency and pain levels, I tingled down the entire left side of my body; top of my head to the bottoms of my foot, and I had this crazy annoying pinching feeling in the back of my left arm and the same feeling wrapped halfway around my ribs; spine to sternum — lovingly known as a MS hug — feels nothing like a hug by the way!! I knew my life was about to change for sure, but I didn’t know how.
They let me know I probably had this disease for years, starting in my mid-20s by virtue of my lesions and some “possible symptoms” I had on and off over the years. I literally blew them off, because they were sporadic and didn’t last very long. I use to trip over my left foot, just walking on flat surfaces. Jokingly I’d say to myself “I wonder if that is MS” Since my sister was diagnosed, it was always in the back of my mind. Everyone in my family had some kind of ailment or illness except me so my mind always wondered. I also had some muscle spasms and this funny fluttering in my ribs. I just ignored it and chalked it up to nerves, or something else. I wasn’t diagnosed until I was 40 years old, June, 2012. How did I hold it at bay for so long?
My doctors told me it was more likely than not due to how I took care of myself. While I always had a weight issue, I worked out regularly and took supplements and that is what probably kept me normalized for the most part. They cannot say 100% for sure if that is the case, but I will have to agree with them on this one. Why, you ask? Six months before my diagnosis my mother passed away. I was devastated and went into a depression of sorts 😞. Not the typical depressing most people think of. I didn’t pull away from everyone, hide in my room, stop talking to everyone and cry all the time. However, I was tired A LOT , and I had no desire for my workouts and couldn’t care less about cooking healthy, fast food was just fine with me! I forgot to take my supplements all the time, so I just stop taking them all together, because it was a chore to get them ready. In those six months I gained about 10 pounds. And almost five months after her death my symptoms kicked in and little by little they increased. Then, basically six month to almost the date, my symptoms were full blown and out of control and I had my diagnosis of Multiple Sclerosis.
Now I am not going to lie, I couldn’t get my life together for about two years as far as working out and eating healthy. Mostly because the doctors told me I couldn’t do most of the things I use to do before workout-wise and I felt crazy going to the gyms. They were worried I’d hurt myself, falling or something of the like so I was discouraged to say the least not to mention I had put on a total 30 extra pounds within three months after the diagnosis. I could no longer distinguish between what was MS and what was me being in pain because of my weight.
FINALLY I found a workout program I could do at home, completely modified along with a all natural nutritional shake that MADE MY LIFE. A program I could start from ground zero with lots of accountability and support. If you’d like to know more about that program Click Here And Check It Out! It made all the difference and within only 42 days I had lost approximately 13 lbs and I can’t even remember how many inches, but this is what it looked like~
And my symptoms were starting to fade. I wasn’t cured and NO! I didn’t stop taking my preventative meds. Over time I noticed I didn’t have to modify as much and I could do the workouts just like the people I was watching on TV. Even better I could out do my 6’3″, physically fit Hubbinator (that is my husband, for those who don’t know..😂) And he was still in the Army at that point.🏋🏼♀️
It’s been approximately three years since I started this journey and there are days when my MS still gets MSessy 🤷♀️and I have a bad day, but it doesn’t last long and I usually know what’s triggering it. I didn’t drink enough water, or eat enough vegetables. I ate too much white bread. I didn’t drink my shake for a few days (I NEVER DO THAT… ANYMORE 😳) but I did in the beginning, because I didn’t realize how much of an impact it had on me. Now my workouts are very intense, I still use some modifications, because I have some bad knees. Being 5’ and 225 pounds at one point in my life, did some damage that I can’t be fixed with weight loss alone and require surgery and I’d rather not do that at this point, so I prefer to modify when needed and wear knee braces. I don’t let ANYTHING hold me back. I push harder than ever, but I do know my limits. When I first started, my limit was working out no longer than 30 minutes MAX. Now I can do 45 minutes and few days and 60 a few days, but I can’t do 60 minutes every day or I will fatigue out. I can workout 6 days a week, but I HAVE to have a rest day. I need self-care. Massage and chiropractic care from time to time, because I have slight scoliosis. I listen to my body. I take a week off about once every three months. I also have cheat meals from time to time and enjoy the food I eat without guilt. I just don’t indulge to the point of getting over stuffed. I hate feeling that full; makes me feel sick.
I have to say this again..I AM NOT A DOCTOR, but I KNOW everyone with Relapsing/Remitting MS and other functional autoimmune diseases should find a healthy lifestyle (actually everyone in this world, but since I’m talking to my Ninjas, you get where I am coming from right now). Incorporate exercise in your life. Just like Newtons’ First Law, a body in motion, stays in motion! Conversely, a body that stops will grow weak and more sickly (mentally and physically). You will notice that if you stay immobile and you have the ability to actually move, your muscles will begin to atrophy, meaning they will gradually deteriorate and become ineffective due to underuse or neglect! You need those active endorphins in your life that come from exercise to stimulate your muscles and your brain cells. It makes your body feel better and your spirit! Start slow, you don’t have to be fit in a day, you didn’t get unfit in a day!! You also don’t have to be the most healthy eater instantly. You didn’t start unhealthy eating habits in one day either. It’s a process and you have to give yourself a break and understand sometimes you have to take things in segments. I can teach you how to do this. If you are interested. You can schedule a clarity session with me! CLICK HERE TO SCHEDULE!
So, that is my story,! It’s why you see me sweating my bunz off at what looks like workouts that may be killing me, but they aren’t. They are just challenging my mind and body to go where it hasn’t before. Even when I was doing the minimal, most modified moves ever, guess what? I was still doing more than the undiagnosed, possibly, healthy person who was sitting on the couch doing nothing! So I rock! 😝 You can too and I know it! Because we all have an inner Ninja waiting to come out!